Update! Vent.. :S

Sorry I am so super crap at keeping up with this.

I have just been way busy. Monday we leave for snowboarding... a week of fun.. yeah hopefully :)

Well anyway this morning Kevin and I had a super argument and now hes away out to work and he hasn't called me and I can't call him cause I don't want his cell going off I don't know what time he was getting his break today... it'll be over now anyway.

I feel super bad.. but I was justified in what I was saying. He thinks its easy for me having to stay in all day every day with a clingy toddler who is getting more and more difficult... he thinks I don't want to go out to work or want to go out to college... but no.. I'm thinking of US and whether we can manage to afford to go to college. So that Lily isn't without anything... so that Lily might have a sibling.

But to him.. everything I say is for me and it's not the case. He just goes out to work every day... and sure he works hard he missed 13 months of our daughters life but it's not just him in this family. If I didn't stay in with her we'd have to pay for childcare all the time... sure he's on a E4 paywage now but its not all that much for all of us....

Plus I do whatever the fuck he wants all the time (pardon my french). I am just annoyed that he thinks I'm lazy and don't want to do anything...... anything but that.

Ugh ok sorry for the vent I'm just upset he thinks that of me... and now I feel bad for shouting at him but I wanted him to ring me on his break because he usually does that... and he hasn't.

I want it to be fun when we go away not some sort of thing where he is sitting there going "oh yeah and it was me working that is the reason for us getting away on this" sorta thing. I know he wants the best for me but I WANT to go to colllege but I am trying to think of our family.... :$

Ok.. sorry for the vent.

Love y'alll <3